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  Me, Myself and i know what’s best for me, knows my limitation, knows where to start and end. Me, is a simple girl who had a simple dream to become a office girl someday. Myself, is a dreamer and a daydreamer , i love day dreaming i can’t help myself to stop it. Thinking of my future and my boyfriend. I, is believer and i believe that all of my wants and dreams will come true because Me,Myself, I know’s what is best and good.

   I have  my friend who is special to me and she’s one of a kind. I like her so much and she’s the best. What makes bestfriend unique from a special friend? For me,bestfriend is always been there for you to wipe away your tears, will love you for being you, can keep a secrets, know your all fears and problems, he/she will love you no matter what they say,he/she will take all the bad times and make you smile always,she/he brighten up my days, she/he been there to lend a shoulder and makes you comfort, she/he will listen to you every single words,understanding,she/he knows if your lying and she/he knows your family background and you will find his/her if she/he is not around.  All  of the characteristics i’ve meantion is what my bestfriend have. I can’t live without her, she is my bestfriend and she’s special, She is special because she is one of a kind and i can’t compare her to other friends i have now. No matter how poor she is it does’nt matter as long as both of us feels that we are special to each other and we are bestfriends.

    Yipee!!It’s gonna be a great month for me when it is february. Because we are celebrating a "HAPPY HEARTS DAY". Because People are in love, people are full of love and all kinds of love.

  I love hearts day or known as "VALENTINES DAY" and we are celebbrating that every february 14. Because that day is a special day for me because it is the only way i can show my one of a kind love for my boyfriend but my boyfriend doesnt want to celebrate it because it is corny. But not just for my boyfriend i show my happy hearts also to my friends,love ones, like you.

Both of them can be a good leader in our country. If both of them want to serve our countrymen. The one who can solve the problem of our country and one who has a heart of our national hero. I cannot tell that Men can be a good leader, it’s not! As we all know and we encountered that some of our Men President for instance Former President JOseph Estrada has a characteristics of a bad example attitude. He just wasting his money in buying mansion for his family. Because i watch "ERAP MANSION" in probe team last sem in our history. It shows how he wasted the money of the people. which people "parents" work hard for money. BUt Men have the other side also like for instance most of our national hero are men, they fought by heart ,sacrifice and using sword like for example Andres Bonifacio we call him as  "Brain of the Katipunan". He is brave and has a strong feeling willing to help and serve and that is the good example of a Men good leader.

  Women can be a good leader . Because women has a "mother material" and has an understanding attitude . Because for me women "knows best". They also got negative attitude they/we women has a low-hearted or shall we say so emotional one.

  All i can say is there is no perfect leader to choose. huh?! Our leader in our future cannot solve our problems in our country. We will bring it until next generation.

  Some of them wanted to be leader to make money and to make name or they want to be fame or to be respected to all people.

 Here is a motto for a becoming a leader "One serve his people has reason and it is money"….

                       I am sick and tired of those issue regarding to election. What I am trying to say is “ELECTION IN THE PHLIPPINES” is such a damn one. We can’t say that politician are true to their selves and for those people who believe in them. We are not sure that they true to their words ,they promising but still be broken. They don’t have the “WORD OF HONOR” that’s what I called them. I am not in the right age to vote but I can see the problem. The problem is between voters and politics. The hope is in the hand of the voters, they will choose a leader that will serve and help us people. But instead some of the voters abuse it, they sell their votes in order to have a fast money. Running leaders busy doing their “Extracurriculum” they doing lots of things to grab the attention of people and also to vote for them.

                      My own prediction for this year’s election is likewise of what we have election last year. No renew and no changes. Because as I know there is no leader will fully serve to his countrymen however they will serve their family and make a lots of money

                    My most valuable thing I have receive in my enter life was a wedding ring given by my former boyfriend. He gave me a wedding ring when I was in the age of fourteen. Well, you won’t believe?! But it is true, he is my fiancé, because both of our family are Chinese and they followed Chinese tradition. But when the time comes and I am running in the age of 16, both of our parents decided not to continue the wedding they have plan and that it’s.until now, I keep the ring because it is the thing that I will remember him and we are not seeing each other because they were in Japan right now.

               Second valuable thing I have received was a gift from my mother’s heart. What I am trying to say is “LOVE”, I really love her. She suffer for her sickness but she always showed to us that she really love us. By way of not giving materials thing but showing her love and care to us.

My expectation in this year 2007 will be more grace/blessings come into my life. I am expecting too much from my family, I want them to change their attitudes, support me in my studies , my father will also have a time for me nor to his second family. There will be no more fighting within our family, no selfishness, no more neglect and I am expecting that there is “Love” with us. I want my father, my brother and his family to convert to catholic because they have their own religion one is Baptist and Jehovah and  I am the only one who attends in Roman Catholic. No more cockroaches in my room because I always wonder why they so many cockroaches in my room however I always clean my room.

        I never expect anything good about our country and there will be no changes happen because, As I know that we are in the list of the poor country. We are in poverty, so we can’t stop it. Population is always getting bigger and bigger, crime is always there, typhoon, corruption and money is one of our biggest problem nowadays. How can we pay our debts to our from other country? If we have a government doing “extracurriculum”  (corruption).

                       I do not know how I really feel right now. I have mixed emotion, I feel depress, alone and self- pity. I want to cry all night long for a reason. My father did not fully pay my prelim examination and what is on my mind now is that i will be out of school soon. Why? Because I know he cannot pay my tuition fee. I feel hopeless in my studies right now. My father did not do his best to pay my tuition fee or even lend to his officemate or to his family clan, all he did is just he want me to lend to my classmates money and support his second family. I feel self-pity and I feel like out of this world, out of my family world duh?!. I want him to be supportive in my studies and also want him to courage me in my studies all he did is the vice versa of what I said. I am twisted and I feel my head will gonna crack of this grave problem i have. I want to finish my studies and that is my goal.

                  I feel jealous when my father has more time to his second family than to the original one and it is me. It is so difficult for me to have a family like this. It won’t be like this if my mother is still alive. I hate my father so much, he is so dumb and numb. He don’t even feel what I feel right now. I am shaking and I want to kill him! I want him to know how difficult i feel and i want him also to realize that he is wrong choosing the other family.

                    If I have given a chance to talk to God, I will tell and ask God to make me happy and contented  and appreciate the family of what I have now. I will ask God and tell him to change my father’s attitude and realize his mistakes.